I know you would never do that, Q, much less lie to me about it.
[He's quiet for a long moment.]
I don't mourn or regret a thing that has passed between us. You must know that. I am... sorry [there's that word again, twice in less than a minute] for bringing it up. You... hah. [tiny, bitter laugh.] You know me. I can't let something that fascinates me lie.
[There's no click, but Q might have hung up again if not for the sound of
him trying to not let on that he's a wreck over this.
He also tries to hide a deep, shaky breath.]
The doc put me on some kind of medicine after that. It helped; stopped me
from hearing him-- or hearing whatever all the time. I...don't know what
I'll be like coming back.
[And he lets the rest of that breath go.]
That's all I know. Sorry. You deserve more, but I don't got it.
Don't-- apologize. You have nothing to be sorry for.
[This is the probably the most miserable he's felt about Q not having a body, because if there was ever a time he needed to touch him, it's right now. There's a great deal he wants to say, but nearly fifty years of emotional repression is really taking its toll at the moment.]
It truly doesn't matter to me what condition you come back in.
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