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u kno me

i missed u papi that ain't even fair

goldie taking good care of u over there??

He is

I missed you too, though I'm glad you were spared the start of this nightmare.

[God only knows what Jaden would do to Q. He's terrible enough when things aren't personal.

There's a long pause before his second message.]

I'm so sorry. Mustafa caught us all by surprise but that's no excuse.

[there's no pause at all between any of these messages:]

to be honest
really shouldve seen that coming
seemed a little too happy a coincidence right
no biggie papasan I'm OK
I'm just sorry I disappointed everyone

No one saw it coming. And I don't think you disappointed anyone. We're just glad you're alive, wunderkind.

When will you be joining us?

ask our beloved captain maybe ur glad I'm alive maybe ur the minority

Why would he be angry with you?

papasan if I knew the answer to that question I'd only get him mad at me every OTHER day but where I am its really nice I think I'm really happy here and we could use this place to really help you guys out

He's

[Albert doesn't mean to send that but it goes regardless. His whole body is shaking slightly, including his hands, he's guessing from this so called 'cure'. It feels almost worse than the sickness.

He may as well finish the thought.]

He's lost someone dear to him. Be patient.

[He knows what it's like. Vivid memories of Jet's deaths come to mind unbidden. The soul-sucking drop in the pit of the stomach, the sense that the sun may never shine again, that you're still stuck in this mortal coil without one of the main things that made it worth bearing.

Not even getting to say goodbye.

He may not be able to look Jim in the face, but he does understand.]

If you'd rather stay where you are though, I won't begrudge you.

[The idea that maybe he wants to simply stay away from Albert comes like an unwelcome blemish, but it's a manageable one, one he can wipe away instead of simply stare at in despair. Perhaps the virus is working after all.]

I know
believe me I know & u no I'm there for the captain always but
papasan this place is so dope
everything's so weird here I fit right in
I don't got no option of staying tho whenever wes cures the haze I'll be back
maybe we could get the whole family together throw a BBQ I could go for some ribs how about you

I'm assuming "dope" is a good thing?

Far be it from me to take what peace you've found. If Wesker is with you, could you please thank him for me?

[Even if he'd gone headfirst into the thing that Wesker had tried to spare him from, the man had been working in deep cover for a long time now and that deserves praise, especially considering Jaden.

Frankly food of any kind sounds like a bad idea right now with how sick he's feeling but he'll play along regardless.]

Anything you want.

[Q won't explicitly say how much Albert's gratitude means to him, but it'll be at least obvious in his reply:]

thank him yourself when we all together again
which will be soon if I got anything to say about it
u don't even no how much I miss u guys

You're missed as well. How long have you been back? I thought you were

[Hold on this is weird to type.]

Part of Mocawa?

[Or something like that.]

o I was
until a certain meddling scientist found out about it
its been a few days now I'm still fresh as a baby over here

It seems we owe Wesker an even greater debt, then.

[He's at a loss for what else to say. Right now it's a miracle to Albert that Q even wants to associate with any of them after they let him die like that. It's likely why he's really holed up in the tower, a generous soul still wanting to help but too wounded by the actions of the rest to do it in person.

Or that may not make a lot of sense, but it's the explanation his mind is coming up with. It's doing that a lot. He'd had dark thoughts along those lines before, but after he'd been brought back that little hopeless voice had reached a screeching crescendo and it's still difficult to hear anything over it. He doesn't know if it's because he's a somnua, because of Jaden's influence, or just his own chronic condition reacting to stress.

He should just bury it and move on, bottle it up. Get over it. He's been too much of a burden already, he doesn't need to continue to do so.]

[That is fine; Q's largest dilemma at the moment is finding clean pants and he is never at a loss for what to say. They're a match made in heaven, these two.

He gives up on the pants and continues thusly:]

u could make it up to him by being the only 1 who is nice 2 him
I think u would dig him papasan

Why wouldn't someone be nice to him? I assume you are.

I should be a lot nicer
in fact I been a huge asshole to him since he revived me

I find that hard to believe. How so?

man u have no idea
got my period or something lol
guess we all been thru hell it's just a matter of picking back up now rite papi

I'm sure he'll understand your frustrations if you tell him, Q. If you're so certain no one will understand that you keep it all to yourself, then it's something of a self-fulfilling prophecy.

[Which basically makes Albert the biggest hypocrite ever but this isn't about him. Right.

...]

You're right about that, though. About having gone through hell. I'm afraid that it isn't over yet either.

[It may sound like a turn of phrase, but he is well and truly terrified.]

o ya we talked it out already and everything's better than good now
we made some ballin pasta
somethin going on papasan?

[There's a pause before he answers; this is something he hasn't told Jet, afraid he'll just worry him further. The other cyborg's been putting on a positive face but it's not hard to tell just how worried he is. For Jet's sake, he can't tell him the doubts that he's about to air to Q.]

I'm trying, but
My time on the island was not pleasant. I'm afraid there are certain effects from which I won't recover completely, if at all.

I'm frightened.

[Seeing it there in type just makes him feel sicker, makes it more real. He wishes he hadn't said it.]

don't b
whatever wes can't fix well figure as we go
I been where you are now
u wanna call?

No, Jet's napping. I don't want to wake him.

[Frankly he should be napping too but the effects of the virus are making it difficult. He could go in another room, but the chance of running into someone else is too high. He doesn't feel he can handle talking to anyone else right now. And that's part of the problem.]

And I hope you've never been where I am right now.

[Used, tainted, disgustingly clingy yet infuriatingly standoffish. Worthless. He risks waking Jet to rummage for a cigarette, lighting it with shaking fingers.]

I won't know for sure unless you tell me about it

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